Sunday, May 31, 2015

May Grays

Over all May was a terrible month of mostly downs. BUT, there were a few ups!:

  • I got an NZ credit card that rewarded me with a bonus of 200 Air NZ points (ooh, travel dreaming!).
  • I recently reclaimed my life. I went to a meet up where I didn't know anyone, and met some new people, partly in an attempt to put myself out there on the dating market. If you recall, the last time I did this, it didn't go so well. This time it went much better, and I am getting so good at just walking up to people and starting conversations. [Quarter 2 meet up goal, DONE! :)]
  • I helped pay my mom's way to visit me while I'm working in Europe later this year--she now has booked her flights. I also convinced my mom's sister to come along, so my mom doesn't have to be alone while I'm working over there. I am SO STOKED that my mother is getting to fulfill her long-held dreams of traveling to Europe. She has wanted to travel since before I was born; she admitted once, almost ashamedly, that she knew she was giving that up when she had children. It means so much to me that I get to inspire and help facilitate her dream coming true. They are staying with me the first week I'm in Europe, then traveling on to exotic destinations. I hope this becomes a trend and they do this every year. (I hope nothing screws this up for her.)
  • I found out that I won a prestigious grant for my PhD! I also won a student registration waiver for the conference I'm going to. Very good things for the ol' CV, and for my research budget.
  • I did some really fun tasks for the "job" part of my job. I am killing it there. So on the ball. My big boss will be overseas til late this year and I am filling in for her while she is gone. I've been able to step into her shoes almost seamlessly, while also fulfilling my own job duties. I mean, it is A LOT to juggle, but it is just so enjoyable and an amazing experience. And I am really good at it.  


That last point actually brings me to the downs.

  • The reason I'm doing the PhD is so that I can continue to do my awesome job in the future. I have looked everywhere for the 'next' step that would allow me to continue doing my job, and it requires a doctorate, no exceptions. Experience is unfortunately not enough. Also unfortunately, as I've posted, I am not doing well (in the eyes of my supervisors) in the PhD. I personally think I am a little bit behind, but not as much as they say I am. 
  • Because I'm so stressed and time-pressured in the PhD, I stopped doing everything that keeps me even-keel. I am so sensitive these days. The littlest things make me break down in tears. I have GOT to start exercising, eating better, sleeping, and getting into a normal routine, or else I think I'm headed for some serious problems. I am really worried about my mental state right now. In particular, the future is weighing really heavily on me: What happens when my parents pass? I will be completely alone in the world. I have wonderful friends and extended family, but of course most of them live far away, and 90% of them now have spouses and soon will have their own families to concentrate on. It's just not the same. 
  • Speaking of mental health and family, my sister is back in the hospital and still angry at us (her family). It's been about a year now that she has not snapped back to her usual loving self. She seems stuck in this angry mode (which used to only last for a brief period while she was in an episode). I also haven't even been able to talk to her in months given the time difference, and because the phones where she is are always busy, broken, or unable to take any more voicemail. 
So, for May goals:


  1. Get 8 hours of sleep per night, on average! (I don't think I did this. I tried. It was sporadic, though!)
Extras:
  1. contribute $250 or enough to get the full member tax credit in my kiwisaver DONE!
  2. schedule new medical appointment for next month DONE!
  3. get results from my latest bloodwork (Need to call...)
  4. continue daily streak of German courses Mostly done.
  5. book my Europe flights for work DONE!
  6. Play bridge a few minutes a day and review rules DONE!
  7. track time for two weeks Done! Need to do it a different way, though--my current method doesn't break things down enough.
  8. work out as many days as possible Nope
  9. stretch as many days as possible Nope
  10. review astronomy lessons once Nope
  11. schedule PhD pampering Doing it in an hour!
  12. think about starting pilates again Thought about it...
  13. take a dance class Done!
  14. update all my professional pages: CV, LinkedIn, ResearchGate, Work pageblog page, twitter  Need to do!
June Goals
As usual: Sleep 8 hours each night. And this month, I should really start getting into a solid bedtime/wakeup routine.

Stretch goals: 
  1. Update my CV, LinkedIn, and ResearchGate with new grants I won! and the new tasks I have performed in my expanded job role. 
  2. Reschedule medical appointment.
  3. Get results from my blood test. 
  4. Track time for two more weeks using new method. 
  5. Schedule massage pampering for June.
  6. Go to one Pilates class. Choose a location and a time/day.
  7. Think about going to stretch class. 
  8. Continue German lessons. Try for daily.
  9. Review one bridge rule.
  10. Review astronomy/June star chart.
  11. Reschedule laser appt.
  12. Update billing accounts with new power and phone company (I switched both!).
  13. Finalize August trip plans.
  14. Organise June public outreach event successfully.
  15. Meditate every day.
  16. Think about going to a therapist/life coach.
  17. Back up computer.
  18. Start researching Wish List items so that I can order them when I go home. 
  19. Decide on credit cards to apply for to use at home (to get bonuses). Use Brad Barrett link.

Saturday, May 30, 2015

Bonkers Kiwisaver Returns

These are my real-life returns in my Kiwisaver. Insane!! If it were allowed without penalties, I'd be sorely tempted to pull money out right now. I'm really tempted to transfer some to bonds. It feels like these returns cannot possibly last.

...If only my US investments were doing as well. I keep losing money in those (maybe a little less now that I have restructured my allocations, but still).


Net investment return to 30 May 2015 09:53 pm


KiwiSaver
Total

Since 1 March 2015
4.32%
4.32%
Last 12 months
20.23%
20.23%
Last 3 years
18.83%p.a.
18.83%p.a.
Last 5 years
14.79%p.a.
14.79%p.a.

Ah, money. Whatever else is going on in my life, I know that I have a good handle on that.

Thursday, May 28, 2015

"DO BETTER"

That is what my co-supervisor, the head of my department, and funder of my PhD told me today (as I sat there, miserably sick with a cold but still have not missed ONE day of work, even on the weekend, because I dare not miss the time). I've covered how I am working myself to the bone, but still way behind according to my supervisor. This is extra pressure--a second person telling me to shape up. This guy is notorious for making his PhD's cry. (Not this one. Not yet. Not ever.)

(I think my first supervisor talked to the co-sup and told him to get on me about this, because the co supervisor literally has not talked to me about my PhD since he agreed to fund me last January. There is no way he could know what is going on--he only knows what my first supervisor tells him. So that is some consolation.)

But still: I'm, like, officially in trouble at work! I swear, this has never, ever happened to me. I have always met, nay, exceeded the expectations placed upon me. Maybe I didn't always meet my expectations for myself, but damn it, I always excelled in other people's eyes. At least, that is what they all told me, rewarding me with A+'s, scholarships, substantial salary raises and bonuses, and stellar performance reviews. I literally get told I'm the best or a superstar in my part-time job, EVERY SINGLE DAY. I have to believe that I'm not a complete eff-up. The contrast between the two experiences is astounding.

I'm starting to think that they are actually insane. Honestly, it is either me or them. I am working so hard, have given up so much, and it still isn't enough.

My co-supervisor actually suggested moving UP the timeline instead of back today. Haha.

HAHAHAHAHA.

I kept saying it wasn't realistic given my schedule, and he kept saying it'd be 'easy.'

Again, my head exploded in amusement.

Nope. I'm sorry, but I know NO ONE who submitted their first paper in their PhD 9 months in, which is their deadline. Nearly everyone I know submitted in their 3rd or 4th years. AND THEY PASSED WITH FLYING COLOURS. That timeline is the norm. It looks like failing is going to be the norm for me.

I keep reminding them I have FIVE MORE YEARS. AND:  A PART TIME JOB (which is really full-time). They also want me to start the second and third parts of my PhD right NOW. My first project is maybe a third done. I mean, if I do all the work my first year, what on Earth am I going to do for the next five years? I sure as hell am not going to start more projects. I want to get these three projects done, get my degree, and get the HELL OUT.

Utterly. In. SANE.

So I give up. No more trying to meet their impossible expectations. The only time I ever got a compliment, it was because I had worked over 30 hours in one weekend. I cannot sustain that schedule, even with giving everything else up. Even when I won a highly competitive grant worth $3K, and then another extremely difficult grant for $1K, towards my PhD, nothing. No comments. So it is completely impossible to live up to their standards.

And anyway, it didn't matter. Apparently it doesn't matter how hard I work, it won't be enough, and I'll get scolded anyhow. So I'm going to be behind AND enjoy myself, instead of behind and miserable. Let them scold. At least I will be happy sometimes in the next 5 years.

Back to dance classes I go. All my personal goals! Back to tennis lessons! I get to cook healthy meals. Have a clean house. Back to working out and sleeping and long baths and reading fun material. Back to weekend trips on a whim and lunches with friends and keeping up with my favourite shows. Back to a LIFE. The worst they can do is free me from the PhD. Hmmm. Now, would that really be that much of a loss?!

What do you do when you cannot please someone, no matter how hard you try, try, try?

Wednesday, May 20, 2015

Free Traveling Update, New and Improved (Thanks to Brad Barrett and J$!)

As I've mentioned before, I use airpoints to fund my trips back to the US and back each year to see my family. It has saved me probably $12-15K over the past 5-6 years, and I work hard every year to get enough airmiles to facilitate the next year's travel. The usual deal is that if you spend X amount of money in the first three months of the card opening, the credit card company will award you X number of airpoints toward a specific airline. The good deals are usually something like 50,000 airmiles for spending $3K USD. This works because I don't shop in NZ, and usually spend that amount of money while I'm at home, seeing friends and family in various places, and stocking up on things like sneakers, jeans, laptops, cameras, and other items that are much more expensive in NZ. Paying nearly nothing rather than $2500 just makes the thought being squished in a tiny space, sleep deprived, unwashed, and miserable for 28 hours, that much more palatable.

Recently, though, I thought my options were becoming limited. I realized that I had taken advantage of the full round of credit cards offering bonuses, and thought that this meant that I didn't have a chance of earning more, as new cards don't come out very often, and I thought that most cards had a one-time only bonus rule.

Though I have a basic understanding of credit card bonuses, I guess I haven't done as much research as I could, or I found the various rules confusing. Enter in J$'s post on Brad Barrett, expert travel hacker. I can't believe it, but Brad does coaching on this topic for FREE.

Having done this for years, I wasn't sure I was a good candidate to sign up for coaching, but I thought, "Hey, even if it doesn't help at all, at least I'll know I've done my due diligence." Plus, it doesn't cost anything--he gets kickbacks if you use his affiliate links to sign up for credit cards, but honestly, if you were gonna apply anyway, this doesn't cost you any extra money or much effort to click one extra time, and he and his family get something out of helping you, so why not?!

Anyway, I signed up for his coaching service, answered a few questions in an email, and he sent me back a 16 minute VIDEO personally tailored to my situation. This was a total game changer for me--it really helped to identify my specific needs, clarify my confusion, and answer questions about my particular situation. Plus he is funny and nice!

Thanks to the information he gave me, I was able to organise myself quite a bit. I think now I have a game plan and it looks like I can sustain my travel home for a few more years for free. I am so, So, SO relieved! Being a PhD, I don't have much money, but seeing my family each year is just non-negotiable. Being there with my family is the only reason I would, and have, gone into debt, no qualms or second thoughts about it. Thanks to Brad (and, by extension, J$), I don't think I will have to.

I highly recommend signing up, by the way, for all US credit card users looking to get into the "traveling for nearly free" game*. It's a good deal all around if you are responsible with credit cards. The site can be found here: http://www.richmondsavers.com/

(*No, I do not get anything from recommending this service--I just found it immensely helpful and would like Brad and others in my position to benefit!)

Thursday, May 14, 2015

My Answer Is Always "Stressed Out"

I have been in denial for so, so long.

"I won't let it happen to me."

"I don't care enough for this to make me upset."

"I can totally handle this."

But recently I've started to realize that I don't have this handled. The way I'm living my life right now, I am failing at EVERYTHING I care about.


  • I'm not working out.
  • I'm not eating healthily.
  • I'm bailing on commitments to friends left and right. Many friends say they are worried about me, some complain that they only see me at work, they all wish I could hang out more, and they say that when I'm with them, they wish I were more present/not so quiet or distracted.
  • My sleep patterns are like an INSANE PERSON'S: 6 hours one night, 3 hours the next, 11 the next, then 12 hours for 3 days in a row. WTF? I also have a really hard time going to sleep most nights because I'm tired during the day but somehow not tired at night, no matter how little sleep I got the night before. My bedtime is rarely before 2 am. I can sleep 4 am to 12 pm every day just fine if I could make that my schedule, but if you ask me to wake up at 9 am? My brain is trashed. Luckily my office doesn't care when I get in, but this just cannot be healthy. 
  • I haven't talked to my parents in weeks. We normally chat for an hour or so every week to catch up. I missed talking to my Mom on Mother's Day, like a chump. Worst daughter award.
  • I have just given up on dating. If I can't even be there for my friends, how am I to be someone's constant support?
  • Not to mention, I look horrible, I am breaking out, skin is dry, and I just grab whatever in my closet that is clean to wear every day. My hair goes up in a ponytail every day. No makeup.
  • My house is an utter disgusting nightmare mess. I am so grossed out by my bathroom and kitchen. I haven't cleaned properly in months.
Terrible daughter and housemate, distant, unreliable friend, not taking time to treat myself well. Why? Why would I do this to myself? 

Simply put, my work. I am not getting enough done. I've been told by my supervisor that I should reasonably be able to do things on a specific timeline and I am really far behind. I just...am not meeting expectations. I'm failing. I have been feeling like this was the case for a while now, but now it has actually been verbalized to me by my supervisor. And I am working like I never have before, to the max. Maybe I just can't cut it. Maybe I am not good enough.  

Because I'm so far behind on my PhD, I devote more time to it, which causes me to get behind at my job. Which stresses me out even more, making me less likely to devote time to take care of myself. 

The first thing to go when I get time crunched are all the 'luxury' things that keep me healthy and allow me to relax: working out, me-time, making healthy food, meditating, socializing.

But they are the things I need to do the most to get me in a positive, efficient, happy, motivated mindset. I just don't feel like I can take the time to do them. And even if I had time to do them, I have no energy to.

Because I am not getting these things done, I am really stressed.


My baseline stress level has reached a point where I sometimes realize I haven't breathed in what feels like 2 minutes. How could that be a reasonable stress response?

I wake up and find that I'm crying. It is never about my actual work, but the lack of time. I feel like I don't have time to do the things I want to do anymore, that I don't have time to devote to my favorite people, and that I will end up very, very alone one day if I don't invest time in a relationship and meet someone special in the next few years. But where would I find the time to meet someone, get to know them and date them, and, if they are awesome enough to continue dating, treat them the way they deserve to be treated? How can I ask someone to come into my life and share it with me when I have no time for them? That would be really, horribly unfair of me. I am very upset about this.

I'm also frustrated and very, very angry at myself for not getting things done and running out of time, ALL THE TIME. My to-do list (which I make up at the beginning of every week) could have ONE tiny thing on it for the day, and I still don't get it done because other urgent work gets in the way, or because the thing I did the day before leads to four other pieces of work that need to get done before I can do the thing I was supposed to do that day. Every day I can't cross that thing off of my list (which is a few times a week), doubles my stress and anger at myself.

I try not to compare myself to other people, but a small part of me also feels bad because I see other people juggling their lives JUST FINE. I see them in the same situation I am in (or worse--they are 10x busier!!), and they also have thriving hobbies and kids to take care of and somehow manage to wake up on time every day (I definitely cannot). I ask them how they get it all done, and they just shrug and say that they "just do." They acknowledge that it is hard, but they still get it done. I really mostly compete with myself, but it is hard to ignore when you see that when other people are in the same situation, they work out and manage to take care of most their responsibilities, whereas I can't even manage to get one part of my life together. Or they don't need time to relax. Or their version of relaxing is actually productive. Or they don't mind only getting 4 hours of sleep per night because that is normal for them. I feel like I just can't cut it.

I honestly don't know what to do. One option would be just to accept myself and how I accomplish my goals. I have always been successful in the past so this recent failure is not a reflection on me, but on the PhD process itself, especially the unrealistic pressures it puts on people. If I need to sleep and relax more to be happy and productive later, do it. Maybe I need to forgive myself for being how I am, and everyone else can just deal with it. Maybe I do the minimum I need to fulfill my obligations with the PhD (20 hours a week) and THAT IS IT, unless I WANT to do more. No matter if I am making progress, just accept that this is my own way of doing things. This would mean that I put myself first and do the things I need to do to make myself happy, even if it puts me further behind.

That option is hard because I find it very difficult to feel happy if I am not meeting my goals and expectations. My self-worth is so wrapped up in achieving and accomplishing!

I always said that if the PhD was making me miserable, I'd quit. Either something major, like my mindset or schedule, has to change, or I'm going to have to quit. I refuse to feel like this for the next 5 years, esp. considering that I used to LOVE going to work and adored my job.

Have you ever felt like you didn't have enough time? What did you do?

May Goals

I wanted to get a few more of my 2015 goals done in April:
  1. File my state taxes. (done)
  2. Do the Coast-to-Coast hike now that the weather is cooler? NOPE
  3. Plan out Europe destinations (Prague, various places in Germany, London); US trip this Sept. HALF DONE
  4. Maybe do the SMAT hike through the creek like we talked about? NOPE
  5. Do research into a nice camera for my Europe trip. NOPE
  6. Update my CV, LinkedIn, ResearchGate, staff page, etc. NOPE
  7. Get medical check up scheduled. (completed; still need to go back next month to finish it up)
  8. Go on one date. (Yup!)
In May, I want to:

  1. Get 8 hours of sleep per night, on average!
Extras:
  1. contribute $250 or enough to get the full member tax credit in my kiwisaver
  2. schedule new medical appointment for next month
  3. get results from my latest bloodwork
  4. continue daily streak of German courses
  5. book my Europe flights for work
  6. Play bridge a few minutes a day and review rules
  7. track time for two weeks
  8. work out as many days as possible
  9. stretch as many days as possible
  10. review astronomy lessons once
  11. schedule PhD pampering
  12. think about starting pilates again
  13. take a dance class
  14. update all my professional pages: CV, LinkedIn, ResearchGate, Work page, blog page, twitter



Tuesday, May 12, 2015

The Opposite of Lifestyle Inflation

There's a lot of talk in the PF world about not allowing your lifestyle to inflate to a point where what used to be luxuries become every day occurrences, and you can't go back to living simply. But over the past couple of years, I've experienced the exact opposite: my lifestyle has minimized, downsized...DEflated as a result of my decreased income.

This was not the plan--I'd much rather be getting raises at work rather than salary cuts--but I'm making it work. I think I've finally gotten the hang of it, and I finally feel just as comfortable with my budget as I did prior to the salary cuts.

I still save $500/mo to long-term goals, plus contribute 8% of my salary to retirement. Some months, I even have enough left over to contribute to short term goals. While this first seemed really disappointing, this now seems like a lot to me, and I feel well within my ability to live comfortably. Not extravagantly, but I am definitely comfortable.

But looking at my recent post, I highly doubt I could adjust to living off of $1800 a month in a place like Auckland, but exactly how far could I take it (without sacrificing savings)? I do wonder how low I could go and still feel happy, but I certainly wouldn't want to adjust downward much further than I am now. I really hope I can continue this income level during the rest of my PhD!

My limited resource these days is TIME. Sigh. I just wish there were a way to make more of that.

Thursday, May 07, 2015

Breakdown of my Funds

Just to check in:

$10K Emergency Fund
$100 Bonus Bonds
$3K 2015 US Trip Fund
$3K 2016 US Trip Fund
$13K Europe Travel Fund


Funds Actively Being Worked On:

PhD Fund: $6,789.22 (Half of my monthly overages go to this fund sometimes, plus the interest from my savings account every other month). This money is for PhD emergencies, like I desperately need to buy a new laptop or toy or to impromptu go to a tropical island for a stress break.
House Down Payment Fund: $24,056.78
Extra Kiwisaver Contribution: $1,250 (including May contributions). Another $250 will go to Kiwisaver this month to make the deadline for the member tax credit.


Tuesday, May 05, 2015

Net Worth April 2015

NW since tracking began (DEC 2014)
NW Dec 2014 This month Difference ($) Difference (%)
NET WORTH (same) 104128.75 108773.13 4644.38 4.46
NZ Net Worth 82442.59 86226.31 3783.72 4.59
US Net Worth 21219.15 22295.76 1076.61 5.07


Change from last month: Last Month This Month Difference ($) Difference (%)
NET WORTH (same) 106832.43 108773.13 1940.7 1.82
NZ Net Worth 84772.22 86226.31 1454.09 1.72
US Net Worth 21809.21 22295.76 486.55 2.23


Could you survive on $1800/month in Auckland?!

Since I started the PhD, I have had a lot less income than before. I am still part-time at work, but things are looking like I'll have to go full time in order to make any sort of real progress.

My PhD salary on full-time would require me to cut back EVEN MORE than I have already. I'm already feeling quite pinched...so where else could I really cut back? My lifestyle is about as frugal as it can get given the amount of time and amenities I have (e.g. no time to make lots of meals, very small freezer space to store meals, not a lot of time to walk the hour to/from the grocery store or many other places).

Category
Budgeted Amount
Rent $640.00
Groceries $425.00
Internet $29.33
Electricity
$50.00
Eating Out 
$125.00
Charity
$25.00
Cell phone $60.00
Medical
$65.00
Misc $600.00
Savings
$500.00
Total
$2,519.33

This ^^ is my budget most months. As you can see, I save $500 a month. This is on top of contributing 8% of my salary to my Kiwisaver retirement plan. I currently earn $2,547.22 each month. If I go full time on the PhD, I will earn $1,797.20 per month. I would need to cut $750 out of my monthly budget up there, but I can't really figure out ways to save more than a few bucks in each category, if that. I really am scraping by as it is! Any suggestions? Please keep in mind I'm very low on time and energy--the PhD requires me to work about 45 hours a week, part-time, with my part-time job taking up another 30 or so. If I go full time I'll be working 80-90+ hours a week regularly on the PhD, so I'll have even less time/energy than I do now.

CATEGORY REVIEW
Rent:  My effective rent rate is $160 per week, or $640 per month for normal, 4-Friday months. It is listed as $880 in my normal monthly budget roundups because I count my car park rental income as regular income instead of subtracting it from my official rent total--but it adds up to $160 per week so that is the number I'm using here. This is extremely low rent in Central City Auckland, and even quite low compared to the neighboring suburbs around Central City. Looking on Trademe, in order to pay $160 in the CBD, you'd have to share the bedroom. And my bedroom, which I get all to myself, is huge--has a double closet, fits a dresser, chair, two bookshelves, double bed (queen would fit too), desk, nightstand, and I still have room to work out comfortably. This is a total steal. Living here also allows me to commute to my office walking within 5 minutes, which is necessary as I am low on time and energy with the PhD. I'm very happy with this deal, and HIGHLY doubt I will be able to find anything cheaper.

Electricity: I split electricity 3 ways with my couple flatmates. This makes my portion pretty low, less than $50 per month (that is pretty good in NZ). I have just gone through the powerswitch.org.nz test, and decided to switch to Energy Online. They offered a $100 credit for switching, so that is nice. I feel pretty confident I have this as low as I can get it. The only other way to decrease this would be to buy an insulating blanket for my water heater for the winter and/or decrease the number of baths I take and reduce the amount of heating I do in the winter. I keep my room quite warm and take a lot of hot baths, which is the only way I regularly relax normally! For the amount of $$ I'd save otherwise, these small luxuries are worth it, in my opinion.

Internet: I love Orcon, and I am locked in a contract til August, but I think I am going to switch my power and internet over to Trust Power in August to get their $49 per month unlimited internet deal (plus they offer competitive prices for electricity too). My friend just signed up, so we'll see how he likes it before I switch over. This will reduce my internet bill from $29.33 per month to $16.33 for a year. The next year will cost no more than $79 per month, which is still less than I am paying now. Deal! Savings: $3 to $13/month

Charity: At $25 per month, this is already as low as my conscience can comfortably handle. I actually consider this a small luxury--giving back makes me feel really good, and I am so happy that it is a regular part of my budget. I could cut this to $10 if necessary but I'll be sad about it.

Groceries: $425. AGH! I average $500 on this right now. Struggling with this expense has been going on for years for me. The expense here is linked to me not having a lot of time or energy. I go to the expensive grocery store because I know I can get everything on my list in one go, and because I know that store like the back of my hand. I just want to get in and out as quickly as possible. 

I do know people that spend a lot less, but they have time to (and enjoy) cooking. I do not want to spend the very small amount of free time I have these days in the kitchen, making stuff I don't even like eating (I am a terrible cook). As high as these costs are, I feel like I have gotten this down as far as I possibly can through years of trying different tactics. I hate this one, but I think I am stuck with this high expense, unless I suddenly start loving cooking or find a cheaper store with everything I need. I could try adding one trip to the cheaper store per month or to a farmer's market if time allows, but that is probably the best I will ever do. I could also look into getting my groceries delivered to save time. I'm going to say I'll cut out $15, optimistically.

Eating Out: $125 Again, this is linked to not having a lot of time. I sometimes eat takeout at work in the evenings when I realize I didn't get what I needed to do at work done, and am starving. I try to bring food into work for dinner most nights but there is always a few days where I don't have anything. Plus, this line item allows me to go out with my much more well-off friends once in a while. I could conceivably cut back here, but it would be at the cost of saving time and socialising, so...we'll see. Maybe could cut back by $25/month.

Cell phone: $60. I normally only spend $19 per month on my cell phone plan for 500 MB data, 100 minutes, and unlimited texts, plus I spend $1 a month on extra calls, etc. I rarely run out of data--the exception was over Christmas at a bach, when I had no wifi and had to top up a bunch of times to stay in contact with folks at home. Spark is pretty stupid about reporting your actual activity patterns (error message for time periods longer than a day...hmmm), so I have no way to know how I actually use my plan. The next less-expensive plan is $12 for 50 MB data and 5000 texts, but I'd surely go over that data plan and I call people once in a while, so...I think the savings is not worth the hassle of babysitting and restricting my usage. As for switching, Skinny does offer the same deal for $16/month, as compared to others, as reported on whistleout.co.nz. The other positive is that with Skinny, the unused data and minutes would roll over each month. I think I will look into this to save $3/month.

The rest of the $$ goes to maintaining my US Skype-out phone number and plan which allows my family to call and leave messages for me, and contact me whenever they need to. The hitch is that no one actually USES the phone number--I am the one that calls them every weekend. Still, if there were an emergency, I'd want them to have the option to call me directly from their cell phones. My parents are really bad at understanding technology and Skype in particular--this takes all the mystery out of it for them, and at a time (an emergency) when they would not want to have to deal with it. It is expensive at $60 USD per year, but, worth it for their, and my, peace of mind.

I could easily adjust this down to $30/month, I think. That still gives me a ton of wiggle room. SLASHED by $30/month, potentially $34/month.

Medical: $65. This probably should actually be higher. I'm having some issues lately with migraines that I need to figure out. Plus blood tests for my thyroid condition, regular annual checkups, eye doctor, random semi-emergencies, and dentist appointments are very expensive. I need to get my DTaP booster--a friend got pertussis as an adult and has suffered for years now. I'd love to go to a therapist, too. I want to make my health more of a priority. I'll keep it here for now, and revisit in a few months after my eye and dental appointments are completed.

Savings: Obviously, this is the place where I will have to cut back the most if I went full time on the PhD. I just don't have as much wiggle room elsewhere! I'd like to save at least 10% of my income, or about $180. SLASHED by $320/month. 

I am not eligible for Kiwisaver as a student, so that is not an area where I can cut back.



It just seems impossible! Even with cutting my savings out completely, I would still need to cut a ton more money out of my budget. I have one last category to review:

Misc: $600. Sigh. This is my catch all, and where my entertainment, alcohol, fun, exercise, transportation, fees, gifts, and random household expenses get placed. There are a lot of things that I can do to cut these back, but it will be very, very painful as I triple review each expense and keep this to an absolute minimum already. I routinely go overbudget in this and my groceries budget, even with those measures. I have been tracking my expenses here for a while now. The main thing I could do would be to cut out transport expenses, but that means I have to spend more time walking and taking buses (which I abhor with an almighty passion because public transport here absolutely blows). For example, my only reliable weekly social outlet--a dance class--is in another part of the city once a week. I can either spend 40 minutes walking each way, $4.50 and 35 minutes on buses/walking each way, or less than 10 minutes and $10 splitting an Uber with a friend each way. You can see why I opt for Uber as much as possible. I also use the car sharing service at $15/hour--it gives me some freedom, and the ability to knock a ton of errands out quickly. 

So, more time, more energy on things like grocery shopping or walking somewhere means less time getting work done, and less time with friends or relaxing. It just doesn't seem like a good tradeoff.

Here's what I've spent over the past four months, on average, in each category:

MISC
alcohol  $       86.06
entertainment  $       27.13
exercise  $       25.00
fees  $       24.08
gifts  $       29.60
goods and wants  $    235.09
transportation  $    106.95
travel  $         9.00
Alcohol: Could majorly cut back here. It is mostly one-offs of big bottles of booze that make this number high some months. Most of the time, this figure is less than $20 as I'll have one or two beers while out socializing once a month or so. I don't drink very much as I am a lightweight, but I do go all out once in a while, and I provide alcohol when I host game nights at my house once every few months. However, I have a really good, strong stockpile of vodka, rum, tequila, and whiskey for house parties now so hopefully that lasts me the rest of the year. 

Entertainment: I go out to a movie once every 5 or 6 months. I count my dance classes here as entertainment as they are more fun than exercise.

Exercise: This is one that I wish I spent more on, like Medical. I'd love to take more Pilates, tennis, and other classes if I had the time and money.

Fees: Oof. This is for parking and random dings. Can't seem to avoid them, however careful I am. 

Gifts: I don't spend that much usually. $30 a pop for a few special people and that's it. 

Goods and wants: Usually household stuff like paper towels, toilet paper, cleaning supplies, toiletries, clothes, games, haircuts, random one-offs, etc., but occasionally I get something that I like for my garden or a nice decoration for my house. Could cut back here.

Transportation: Buses, taxis, car sharing, and Uber. I'm addicted and it saves me SO MUCH TIME AND ENERGY. I could cut back here, but I will be a very unhappy camper to do so.

Travel: this is usually quite minimal as I save up for big trips separately.

We'll just say that I can cut $320 out here.

My Luxuries:
Living close to work
Baths
Heating my room in winter
Giving to charity
One-stop grocery shopping
Takeaways a few times a week (convenience at work)/not having to cook
One nice meal out with friends every few months
Peace of mind for my family ($60 USD skype plan)
Timesaving easy transport
Alcohol
Exercise classes

Apparently my new budget has to be similar to the following:
Category Budgeted Amount
Rent $640.00
Groceries $410.00
Internet $29.33
Electricity $50.00
Eating Out $100.00
Charity $10.00
Cell phone $30.00
Medical $65.00
Misc $280.00
Savings $180.00
Total $1,794.33



I honestly do not think that this is actually possible. So. Anything I'm missing? Any advice or am I doomed to go in the red here?! How on Earth do other people live off of so little? 

Sunday, May 03, 2015

April Budget Review

April was an easy month, financially. I had some fun and was able to save some money. Had some left over at the end so I was able to treat two of my friends with birthdays.

Apr 2015 Budget
Category Spent Budgeted Amount Balance
Rent $880.00 $880.00 $0.00
Groceries $393.83 $425.00 $31.17
Internet $29.33 $29.33 $0.00
Electricity $41.99 $50.00 $8.01
Eating Out and Alcohol $173.20 $125.00 -$48.20
Charity $67.50 $25.00 -$42.50
Cell phone $20.00 $60.00 $40.00
Medical $32.50 $65.00 $32.50
Misc $751.02 $600.00 -$151.02
Savings $500.00 $500.00 $0.00
Total $2,889.37 $2,759.33 -$130.03
Remainder $28.05

Income: $2,917.02
Spent: $2,889.37

Rent! On point.
Groceries: Gloriously underbudget. Wait. How'd that happen?!
Internet and Electricity: Right on budget.
Eating out: Overbudget by $50 or so. (Oh, right...less spent on groceries!)
Charity: was a good month--lots of friends doing cool stuff to donate towards. happy to go over in this category only. :)
Cell phone: Yup, OK
Medical: check up! :)
Misc: over budget by $150, but I went over on purpose at the end of the month.
Savings: Right on.
Remainder: $28.05 (transferred to May)

Misc:
MISC
alcohol  $          25.00
entertainment  $          55.00
exercise  $               -  
fees  $               -  
gifts  $        118.40
goods and wants  $        401.20
transportation  $          30.00
travel  $               -  

May will be a 5 paycheck month! :) But also a 5 rent check month. :( Still, it gives me a little more room to play. My expected income will be $3,324.77.

May 2015 Budget
Category Spent Budgeted Amount
Rent $1,100.00 $1,100.00
Groceries $0.00 $425.00
Internet $29.33 $29.33
Electricity $0.00 $50.00
Eating Out and Alcohol $0.00 $125.00
Charity $0.00 $25.00
Cell phone $0.00 $60.00
Medical $0.00 $65.00
Misc $0.00 $600.00
Savings $500.00 $500.00
Total $1,629.33 $2,979.33